I haven’t left you yet. Don’t think it’s simply because I love you. It’s because I still believe you love me back. I am hopelessly unaware your heart doesn’t hold mine.
That it can’t attach itself to me.
I don’t understand I am something you acquired along the way.
I think I am your girl, your love, your very best friend.
I think you can’t live without me.
Because I can’t live without you.
I still believe in you.
I don’t yet understand good and evil can reside within one person.
I choose to mistake evil for anger.
I believe your words.
Even if your actions contradict them.
I’m still trying to figure you out.
I see the best in you.
Even if you confuse me.
I haven’t been introduced to fear, manipulation, and control even though they lurk between us.
I am too busy making your world go round to see it.
I don’t realize you lack confidence, my handsome charmer projects it.
I am selflessly giving and unaware of selfishness.
I don’t sense your fantasy world because you play well in reality.
I place you on a pedestal so there’s no need to ask for praise.
I understand your ability to get what you want but confuse this with success.
I don’t think of the word empathy.
I don’t realize it’s missing.
I haven’t yet experienced the severe anger of the emotionally abusive bully.
I know strictly tears.
I have only met two different people residing within one.
My guy, my love, my very best friend.
And a stranger who looks like him.
One who can’t attach himself to me.
I see the contradiction.
I anguish, I lament, I drift between love and abandonment.
I hide the bad in favor of your good.
I suppress my sanity in exchange for your craziness.
I see you but I don’t believe you.
Even though you keep showing me who you are.
I can’t live without you.
Because I still think you can’t live without me.
I won’t give up on you.
I have attached myself to your heart.
I will fight for you not grasping your ability to win.
I will foolishly beg your attention.
I’ll remind you…
I’m your girl, your love, your very best friend.
I will root for you.
I will continue to see the best in you.
I will believe in the impossible.
I will sacrifice all of me, and then some.
Because I love you.
Until I realize you can’t love me back.
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